hedley concert!

so last night i attended the hedley concert, it was the best i've seen in a long time!
i got to meet with band, they signed my hoodie. :) it was just a great fucking evening. :)
i got chills when the curtain fell and Jacob, Dave, and Tommy popped out : D well, Chris just kind of sat there.. and played the drums :b but still chills!  the sweater song is my favorite new song.. :)
when the crowd started singing the na  na na part, it was almost euphoric. :)

i feel lost...

baww time riley. :/

So, I can't bring myself to actually cry, but I've been tearing up all night; feelings ranging from serious sadness to neutrality. I can't even lay here and feel nothing... I guess I have nothing to cry about, although it feels as though I should be crying.. This is the most torturous kind of depression, because you can't lay there and get it all out of your system. you can't be an empty shell of nothing. you're you, you're kind of happy, but your unhappy at the same time, it's fucking miserable. ALL I WISH TO DO IS LAY IN BED AND THINK ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME SAD, but i don't feel able to anymore.. :/ 


tl;dr i'm sad, but not sad enough to be depressed. and it's pissing me off.


I mean, I'm perfectly happy, but I'm not at the same time.. Something is building up inside of me and I can't get it out...  I don't know if there's something wrong with me, whether I'm fucked up, or not.. I just.. I need a break. I need to figure myself out.

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so, i got my tattoo :) check my daily booth for some picss. also my twitter feed. : D

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K.L.H. ♥ oh how i've missed you; :) our five hours of 'milling around' or otherwise known as loitering, was clearly fantastic. :) we must hang out more often, if i do recall, the last time we watched a movie together was two years ago; horton hears a who :)

walking revalations // what is love? // nevershoutnever

you like the way that there seems to be no end to the trees littering the horizon of a late winter's sunset, and the way that the ice flows seemingly effortlessly across the smooth rivers surface. the lights high up on the bridge slowly intensify against the hastily darkening backdrop; some of them flicker lightly. high concentration on the ground you walk on, past footprints fly by; something shines in your eye. you look closer, it's a piece of rounded glass, you pick it up. realizing the dark is coming closer; almost swallowing the land the much lighter land that took place before. you walk in the direction you came from, seeing the same rocks you had before; an almost perfect clam shell lay open beside a proportionately large rock that is seems similar to the size of a small car. you find a difficult, but fast, way up the short cut banks. you walk up the house, and continue to live as you had before you left for your walk. // what is love exactly? a question from my english substitute asked us, if the characters in the story loved each other. i asked myself: well that would depend on ones definition of love is, would it not? i thought about voicing my question, then thought i would re touch on that later. so what is the definition of love? the definition is quite open ended, as the definition is what you make of it. in my mind, to love is to care for. you can love something with out all the bells attached, you don't have to kiss someone to love someone, all you have to do is to care. you're worried about your friend for instance; to me that is a form of love. i have no idea what being in love is. my perspective on it, is a longing for someone, and to me it's an "at first sight" kind of thing; you see someone, and you feel so literally attracted to someone that you almost can't stand not to gravitate towards them. // nevershoutnever!'s new album, "what is love?" inspired my inquisition above. and i thought i would talk about it a bit more, the songs are phenomenal, especially " i love you five " it's my favorite so far, so cheery and happy. :) i enjoy it thoroughly. so, check it out.